here it goes again

I thought of a really interesting idea. At least I think it's pretty interesting. I went through all the people and wrote some of you a little something. It's supposed to be kinda anonymous. No I'm not tagging you if you're in this. I'll tell you if you're in it if you ask but not who you are. That would be far too easy!!

We weren't close this year like the other years. We let stupid stuff get in the way of our friendship and I'm sorry for my part in it. I'm glad we made up.

You are amazing. You shock me. Sometimes in an amazingly good way and sometimes not so much. . . You hurt me pretty badly. I miss you.

You're one of my best friends. I love you. I would do anything for you. I don't want to lose you. Sometimes I feel like I am.

You're brilliant. HILARIOUS. And unbelievably sweet. I am sorry for a few things. . . but I will never regret anything.

You're the prettiest girl I've ever known. You have an amazing personality. I wish we were better friends.


You have the best sense of style and individuality. I always wanted to talk to you but I was intimidated. I'm glad I did. I'm glad we're friends. I miss you. We need to hang out! Badly.

You have such great morals and sense of self worth. I may have assumed a little that you would be judgmental. You weren't. I love you for that because that was really what I needed. You're one of my best friends.

You are quite possibly the best person I've ever met. I haven't known you very long but I feel I can say that without any hesitation. No one's been that accepting of me in every way. That willing to help me, no questions asked. You understand. I wish you would think of yourself better because I think of you in the best possible way. You are AWESOME!!! You are soft spoken and sweet and amazing.

I have so much fun when I'm with you. You're a part of the family. I wish I saw you more, you're amazing.

I'm just getting to know you. From what I can tell you are great. You have great advice. You chose a good goal in life. I think you will succeed.

I'm so glad that we're together again. Your my best friend and I love you.
You're an amazing artist. You have great taste in music. You are so sweet. Overall. . . just great. I am sorry that we probably wont ever be closer.

You're such a unique person. You're brilliant. I really relate to you. You're a great person. I wish we hung out more outside of school. I always have the best time when I'm with you.

You are like my sister. You mean so much to me. I don't know if you'll ever fully comprehend it.

I just met you. We don't talk that much. You're so nice though.

I miss you so much. You were such a great friend. I wasn't at all. I'm sorry. I hope we are friends again. I think we will be.

You remind me so much of myself. For that I'm sorry. You're great. I hope we stay in touch. I missed you last year!

You are so awesome. You always make me laugh. You should be a writer or something because you have a way with words and I would definitely read a book that you wrote.


Yup. The end. If I missed you don't feel bad.

Everybody Hurts. . .Oh Dwight

I feel overwhelmed.

I think that it's too much for me to handle. I mean. . . this is the type of situation I always wanted. I always wanted a full busy challenging life. Is this too much?

This summer I am taking two, hopefully three classes online. I am also getting licensed as a Personal Fitness Trainer and as a Cosmetic Estetician. I am learning to cook and learning chemistry. I am working a job doing lawn care. And I have friends and I need time for that.

Next school year doesn't really get better in my opinion. I'll have 4 AP Classes, not counting one that is online. All my classes are academic. I will probably have another online class carry over into next year too. On top of that I will also be getting licensed in hair care and nails.

I feel like there are a lot of things that I have been neglecting already in my life and it needs to stop. I need to prioritize and not waste my time doing things that don't count for anything. I need to find a balance. It's hard.

I am in a relationship with a guy who I love very much. Sometimes I worry about things and sometimes he does things that hurt me or bother me or break my heart just a little. No one is perfect. But I need to find some balance because he's not the only person in my life and I have other important obligations to my friends and to my classes and to my future and to myself. I

I am tired.

I am sitting on my bed with pens, pencils, notebooks, binders, and paper strewn everywhere. I am starting to panic. I am starting to doubt myself.