I feel overwhelmed.
I think that it's too much for me to handle. I mean. . . this is the type of situation I always wanted. I always wanted a full busy challenging life. Is this too much?
This summer I am taking two, hopefully three classes online. I am also getting licensed as a Personal Fitness Trainer and as a Cosmetic Estetician. I am learning to cook and learning chemistry. I am working a job doing lawn care. And I have friends and I need time for that.
Next school year doesn't really get better in my opinion. I'll have 4 AP Classes, not counting one that is online. All my classes are academic. I will probably have another online class carry over into next year too. On top of that I will also be getting licensed in hair care and nails.
I feel like there are a lot of things that I have been neglecting already in my life and it needs to stop. I need to prioritize and not waste my time doing things that don't count for anything. I need to find a balance. It's hard.
I am in a relationship with a guy who I love very much. Sometimes I worry about things and sometimes he does things that hurt me or bother me or break my heart just a little. No one is perfect. But I need to find some balance because he's not the only person in my life and I have other important obligations to my friends and to my classes and to my future and to myself. I
I am tired.
I am sitting on my bed with pens, pencils, notebooks, binders, and paper strewn everywhere. I am starting to panic. I am starting to doubt myself.
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I know you're extremely smart, even if you don't think so. Really. And you have enough time to get all of that done... three months. The FLVS will be really tedious but when you finish, they might be some of the best days of your life, not to sound too nerdy. As long as you do your best, I hope you don't regret things.
This might sound weird too, but the part of that post that made me smile the most was the part about needing to learn how to cook. Yeah.
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